Well steam my rice and call me a side dish, we’re living life out here! I celebrated my 28th birthday over the weekend, so I’ve been trying to allow myself to have fun. Believe it or not, that can be a tough one for me.
I have a tendency to always feel like I need to be striving towards some type of goal, which can be a great thing sometimes, but other times it’s important to enjoy the moment and simply be. I know I’m not the only one who struggles with this. Honestly, I wouldn’t be surprised if more people struggle with it than not, at least in the United States. Achievement is hammered into our culture.
I think it’s an important aspect to life. I think we should all have goals and do our best to attain them, as long as we maintain balance. We often tend to idolize people who do nothing but achieve, no matter the cost. Tiger Woods, Steve Jobs, Michael Jordan… we have an affinity to view these people as the epitome of success, even though they’re clearly insane. There’s definitely a place in the world for people who have an obsessive one-track mind towards a specific goal, but I don’t think it’s the highest virtue we pretend it is.
I’ve been catching myself when I have destructive thought patterns lately, and I’ve realized how easy it is to create a reality that isn’t necessarily true. If I’m in a sour mood, I’ll tell myself I haven’t done shit, I’m a loser, I’m lazy, all of these things that aren’t true. Sometimes I need someone in my life to remind me of all the things I have done just so I can quiet that voice.
It’s really easy to compare yourself to other people, too. Sometimes I look at the comics here in Austin who go out every night and get on stage and I beat myself up that I’m not doing it as often and as consistently, but I have to remember that I’m not them. When I first got here, I could only do standup once, maybe twice a week. Now I can get on stage ten times in a week and still maintain my sanity. That’s a lot of progress. Jordan Peterson said to compare yourself to who you were yesterday rather than who somebody else is today, and it’s always a valuable lesson.
Comedy is hard enough as it is, so when you start beating yourself up it just becomes a lot of unnecessary criticism that can lead into a gnarly spiral. I even catch myself criticizing myself when I’m sick or unwell. I have to remember that I’ve had to overcome a pretty pungent anxiety disorder as well as severe inflammatory bowel disease that threw my life upside down when I was 17.
This weekend I was ignoring my diet because I was trying to just have fun and not worry about anything, and I ate cheese three days in a row. Then last night I was hungry, so I stopped at In n Out to grab a four by four, protein style, ketchup and pickles only. I was feeling pretty good but once I ate the burger I got suppppper depressed. Then it carried on throughout my entire day. And that’s just my reality. I eat cheese four days in a row and I get really depressed. It might sound insane, but that’s the hand I’ve been dealt.
A lot of our mental health is contingent upon the health of our gut, so if you’re wondering why eating cheese could make someone depressed, there’s your answer. We tend to think of the human body as a bunch of different working parts that often aren’t related, but it’s all connected in some way or another. Everything is connected in some way or another, down to the level of quantum physics.
There’s something called “quantum entanglement theory,” which proposes that particles, even if they’re billions of light years away, can exchange information and act in accordance. Hence, they’re entangled, or connected. I believe this runs true throughout the entire universe. I think all consciousness is connected and everything in the universe is connected.
You might have heard someone talk about ESP, or you may have had experiences where you seem to know someone thousands of miles away is about to call you on the phone. I don’t think this a coincidence, and I think if you attain a higher level of consciousness you’ll be able to influence things in ways you never thought possible.
This is a bit of rabbit hole that loses a lot of people, but I find it fascinating. I think our current level of conscious awareness is very low here on earth, and most of us tend to subscribe to the notion that our reality is what we can perceive with our eyes and ears. There’s something called “The Fermi Paradox,” which proposes the question: If, mathematically, it seems impossible there is no other life in the universe, how come we haven’t seen any evidence of it? Essentially, where are the aliens?
Personally, I don’t think we’re going to find alien life by looking for it because I don’t think our perception is geared to observe it. It’s like if you were to walk past an ant hill. The ants won’t “see” you, or even perceive you as a living being because their senses and their perceptions aren’t designed for it. You can stand there all day right next to the ant hill and no ant is going to look up at you and go “wow, look at that creature!”
Since we’re living at a higher level of consciousness, we can observe the ant, but the ant can’t observe us. I think the same is true for more advanced civilizations. I think they can observe us, but we can’t observe them because they’re living in a higher “dimension” or “density.”
Anyways, I could talk about this shit all day. I’m sure it sounds like insane nonsense to a lot of people, and I kind of just dove into the deep end. If you’re open-minded and curious, check out the rice experiment conducted by Dr. Masaru Emoto. It shows what the power of conscious intention can do. It’s a total game-changer if you’re able to work on your own conscious intentions and understand the power you possess. Oh and quantum entanglement. Check that out, too. Oh, and the double slit experiment. Have yourself a night!
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